There I go again!
Getting confused,
About what’s in my
head;
And what’s outside of it.
Seed of an idea in my brain-
Should I get it surgically removed? Is that the answer?
In my brain, in my brain,
The physical location.
In my mind, in my mind,
The metaphysical location.
How do I tell the difference?
Do I keep my thoughts inside or outside?
Do they exist until I voice or act upon them,
Or are they in a void that doesn’t mean anything?
I imagine them part of an inky black universe, little fireflies
flitting about;
I catch them one by one and they come to life as I:
Put the kettle on, discuss God, kiss you on the lips…
My mouth is a net to catch and swallow, my fingers hooks, my
legs anchors-
Adrift in the sea of the abstract, are all the things I’ve
ever thought, will think or can think.
Capture inspiration, make it real!
My body is entirely outside, I suppose anyone can see;
I just get confused because my heart beats and blood flows
and it feels like part of me;
But they aren’t made of the same stuff as love, joy,
sadness, despair,
They are merely affected by it.
There’s no way to fully express things that come from the
void, the sea,
Those little fireflies go out, diminish the moment I catch
them.
What hope do I have, between two worlds?
I can feel, and there is reconciliation as I touch my heart
to show that it hurts,
As I shed tears to show I am overwhelmed,
As I run away to show that I am afraid,
As I touch you softly to show that I care,
As I repeat what you say to show that I listen,
All is empty without illustration.
For what is the use of love if no-one ever knows it?
If you keep it, cherish it in your special sea-like void,
With all the other ideas, thoughts, hopes, dreams-
It’ll get lost there
And you’ll forget how to find it again someday.
I try to catch every firefly and write its soft, humming
story down
It’s impossible, but I try to listen
As its light slowly goes out I try to make it real on the
outside.
I try to make the inside real on the outside.
Make the inside real on the outside.
Inside real on the outside.
Real on the outside.
On the outside.
The outside.
Outside.
